surrealisting.

It's the last day of spring break and I'm cracking down on my homework.

I have a major Humanities paper due on Thursday. The reading material isn't too bad... I actually liked Candide (Voltaire) and Grand Inquisitor (Dostoyevsky). Topic? Compare the critique of religion in Candide vs. Grand Inquisitor. Compare, what crucial distinctions do you find? Believe it or not, this is the easy topic... the other two options? 1) Compare the social vision of GI to the of Marx. 2) Compare the use of paradox in Candide and GI. Jeeeeeeesus.

Last time I got a B+ on my paper about Hamlet and suicide.

Yeah... I have a long two nights ahead of me.

I also an orgo (organic chem) test on Thursday...

On the bright side, I finished my long ass ap calc bc homework. This is better than average for me. God bless free periods. At this point the only classes I can tolerate are Science Research (because we don't do anything anymore) and Human Evolution, or Biological Anthro (because it's easy and interesting... I mean the rest of my interesting classes are just as interesting if not interestinger but they're not not not not easy). That class makes me almost want to major in anthro... Harvard has a Human Evolution major, but I am not Harvard material DEEPSIGH. Four years, goddammit, I WILL get into a good school. Right now I really want to go to Binghamton, but my parents - ok, my MOM - refuse to even GO to the admitted students day. My DAD said that if I really want to go to Binghamton, it would be ok for him. i<3u dad. Unfortunately, my mom calls all the shots. -frustrated-

Even if, through some act of God, I pass the AP test, I'm not taking those 8 credits. Instead, I'm going to retake calc because I really want a tighter grip on the material.... and it's one less premed class I'll have to worry about.

I think I've settled on a satisfactory layout... Black Minimalism. I added my own header and a scrollbar to the body (posts). Elegant.

My shoulders are still sore from when I altar served the holy thursday mass... I was the incense person LOL... walking backwards throughout and around the church while swinging the incense high... I fail :P


I need to stop obsessing... THINKING about college because it's never productive... I'm never closer to a definitive choice but I do get really pissed off and depressed about it.